I've slept for approximately 6 hours out of the last 48, so i should be tired. However, i am finding myself motivating. Sitting here listening to The Killers' cover of Dire Straits' "Romeo and Juliet", i am reflecting on alot of different things today. As i was finishing my friday night work, i watched the news channels covering The Polar Bear Plunge here in Baltimore. For those of you who are unfamiliar, this is a charity event much like a marathon where you get donations, but instead of running people all gather at a beach near the eastern shore of Maryland in January and dive into the waters. Click the link. Anyway, i've been reading over things like that and The RPM Challenge and National Novella Writing Month. These are a ll great things to help inspire you or others. I'm going to talk to the rest of the band about taking part in RPM and i think i'm for sure going to take part in the other two. I don't know, today is a bit of an "up" day after accomplishing this feat of being up for so long.
Anyway, i think we're playing the Person L show in baltimore on tuesday.
-Ben
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
do not seek the treasure
DISCLAIMER: I have my own blog, but i am finding that i don't have much of a life beyond this band, so typing two entries would just be repeating myself :END DISCLAIMER
My stomach is full again, to a point beyond what i would call comfortable. I've gained weight since we've been home. It's not something i'm ok with at all. Somewhere along the lines, in all of this hustle and bustle, i allowed those who shared the same name to give me self esteem and weight issues. I never used to understand what it was to feel the drag of an honest reflection. I now understand how. You see, i now worry people won't like my band as much if they have to look at a barely overweight Ben Liebsch. I worry my weight, which isn't at all obvious, will negatively affect my band. This causes me to over eat cos i'm stressed or drink because i need to cope, which causes me to feel worse about myself, which causes me to rinse and repeat. I know it's silly, on most days i can conciously identify that i'm not thinking clearly, but it's as if there are two different people talking in my head. One is smarter and more collected. I know this side is correct. There is, however, this other side that has developed in the last year. This side is barely able to hold itself together, frustrated, bottled up, stressed, anxious, depressed. This side has caused me to miss practice, to go months without writing, and most sad of all to withdraw from the people i hold closest to me. I spend alot of time that my mind is somewhat like a rope holding too much weight on either end. The slow fraying has started i just hope there is never a snap. I'm working hard to keep it together, i know letting go is not an option. I don't have health insurance so i can't get help, so for now i'm coping.
In better news, in more relevant news, things on the band front are great. Rico, our newest member is working our great. You may have heard some of his work in the song clip at the end of the video we posted. We're writing more and more everyday. Mike is great as well, becoming quite the drinker. doing us proud. We got the masters back for our soon to be re-released EP featuring two brand new songs, hooray!! If you've seen us on tour,you've heard us play them. We finally got to record them. We have a very special performance announcement coming up soon. We're going to be headed back out on tour in March as well, perhaps to Texas. I can't really think of anything else right now. It's going to be a busy year.
My stomach is full again, to a point beyond what i would call comfortable. I've gained weight since we've been home. It's not something i'm ok with at all. Somewhere along the lines, in all of this hustle and bustle, i allowed those who shared the same name to give me self esteem and weight issues. I never used to understand what it was to feel the drag of an honest reflection. I now understand how. You see, i now worry people won't like my band as much if they have to look at a barely overweight Ben Liebsch. I worry my weight, which isn't at all obvious, will negatively affect my band. This causes me to over eat cos i'm stressed or drink because i need to cope, which causes me to feel worse about myself, which causes me to rinse and repeat. I know it's silly, on most days i can conciously identify that i'm not thinking clearly, but it's as if there are two different people talking in my head. One is smarter and more collected. I know this side is correct. There is, however, this other side that has developed in the last year. This side is barely able to hold itself together, frustrated, bottled up, stressed, anxious, depressed. This side has caused me to miss practice, to go months without writing, and most sad of all to withdraw from the people i hold closest to me. I spend alot of time that my mind is somewhat like a rope holding too much weight on either end. The slow fraying has started i just hope there is never a snap. I'm working hard to keep it together, i know letting go is not an option. I don't have health insurance so i can't get help, so for now i'm coping.
In better news, in more relevant news, things on the band front are great. Rico, our newest member is working our great. You may have heard some of his work in the song clip at the end of the video we posted. We're writing more and more everyday. Mike is great as well, becoming quite the drinker. doing us proud. We got the masters back for our soon to be re-released EP featuring two brand new songs, hooray!! If you've seen us on tour,you've heard us play them. We finally got to record them. We have a very special performance announcement coming up soon. We're going to be headed back out on tour in March as well, perhaps to Texas. I can't really think of anything else right now. It's going to be a busy year.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Monday, January 14, 2008
Nothing compares to...
...systematically going through the charts on purevolume and checking out what's "going on" in our genre these days. I'm only three bands in and i'm stuck on Paramore and when i say stuck it is because crushushush is too good to stop listening to. I skipped Forever The Sickest Kids, i've heard them already. Now, this band The Maine. There is nothing catchier than a "that thing you do" beat to start a song with..wink wink. Sorry.
Anyway, there seems to be alot of new music coming out in the next few months. Our Free EP included, i think we might even be doing a few days in February. more on that soon if it pans out.
...writing is really weird for me lately. I keep writing down phrases, here are some of the most recent, they just strike me as important.
"i am reading a weather book"
"i can't find my way home"
"i'm taking a vacation from the broadcast"
"i want to sound like a ghost"
anyway, i thought i would share those with you. This gentleman is coming from boston with a bunch of technology to document us in various medias. Pictures of him and our fun tomorrow, tomorrow.
-Ben "my entries are seem encoded" Liebsch
Anyway, there seems to be alot of new music coming out in the next few months. Our Free EP included, i think we might even be doing a few days in February. more on that soon if it pans out.
...writing is really weird for me lately. I keep writing down phrases, here are some of the most recent, they just strike me as important.
"i am reading a weather book"
"i can't find my way home"
"i'm taking a vacation from the broadcast"
"i want to sound like a ghost"
anyway, i thought i would share those with you. This gentleman is coming from boston with a bunch of technology to document us in various medias. Pictures of him and our fun tomorrow, tomorrow.
-Ben "my entries are seem encoded" Liebsch
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